craving: hugging my father
It's been a long time since seeing my father. The last time I seen him, was June 8th, 2002. Ya, that's too long. My dad has always been very strict with us. At the time I didn't understand, but now I do. I thank him for that. He never let me go to Mexico with my girlfriends, nor to the prom, but all those times I cried my self to sleep at night, not understanding what he was trying to do, all makes so much sense now. I thank him now.
He called us tonight and I talked to him a long time. He wished my daughter a happy birthday and told me to wish my son the same. Since my baby boy and girl are 14 yrs and 1 day apart. He sounded very lonely for some reason. I felt so sad when we hung up. I just wanna sit and talk to him forever. I wanna laugh with him and act silly with him. He's so funny, yet so loving and caring. I just wanna see him.
My husband talked to him tonight, and asked him to come here. Of course my father and brother and little sister wouldn't have to worry about anything. My husband just told him to go to the airport and the tickets would be waiting, that's all he would have to do. I know my father won't fly and he hates it. But, I really have faith that God will put it in his heart to come see us soon. I want him to see my world. I want him to know that I am okay. I want him to meet my family and see just how I live. I want to introduce him to this culture. He would be surprised when he comes here (he would love it). I want to see him hug my daughter and see him hold my son and kiss my son. I have tears in my eyes now from thinking about it. I wish he would move here, so I can take care of him, as he took care of me and my siblings all those years.
final whisper: I just want your smile and I just want your hugs and I want to hear your voice all the time. one day without you, is like a million years.