Friday, February 11, 2011

I thought of you today...

mood: dreamy
craving: holding my first born son, Mubarak (

Salam Alykom (peace be with you) my dear sisters and brothers and hola to all my non-Muslim followers. I Hope everyone had a great week. The weekend has started in the middle east and one more day for us Americans. Back in 2004 we got the best news ever, I was gonna have a baby. But, it ended sadly. Alhamdulilah (Thanks to God) for everything. I just will never forget his face or his little body when I first held him. I pray that I meet him in Jannah (heaven) someday. He will forever be in my heart and mind. I wrote this the day he was buried, as the snow fell down. I just wanted to hold him forever and keep him warm and safe.

I thought of you today.

Everywhere I looked and every baby I saw i couldn't help to think about YOU
what would your smile look like? and your big eyes too. You have to know I will always love YOU.
Would you want to get out of your stroller, and run? or would you cry to go with your father when he rode the rides with your sister? what would you do?
I thought of you today.
I guess I will never stop dreaming of you day and night.
Wonder what your run would look like.
Your hands upon your fathers face, when you caress his beard.
I thought of YOU today.
We will leave Germany forever but not YOU my son.
Cause forever you will be in our hearts and there you will always stay.
Inshallah (God's willing) my dear son we will meet again in Jannah (Heaven.) But, until then just know that..
I thought of YOU today.
Love your Mother
final whisper: Until we meet again... 
Texan, after UAE..... 


Shahirah Elaiza said...


I can't even begin to imagine what it would feel like to lose a child. May you two be reunited in Jannah inshaAllah.

Innalillah wa inna ilayhi rajioon.

Texan in UAE said...

Yep, I'm still up. LOL Shahirah, how are you, it's been a while.. I hope you're doing well in school and your happy there. I have to go read your updates. Ameen to your duas honey. Thanks for stopping by. oxoxoxo's

Aneebaba said...


Dear Sister - I'm so sorry you had to go through this almost unbearable loss. Ma'sha'allah, that you've persevered through that test from Allah.

I too pray that you will meet again, when there will be no more suffering and only bliss and happiness.

My immense love and warmth.

Br. A (formerly "MuslimFirst)

Twizzle said...

as-salaam aleikum,

I can't even imagine going through the pain you have had to go through with Mubarak :(

May Allah keep you strong and inshallah you will be reunited with him in Jannah.

Amalia said...

I'm so sorry about your son. I can't imagine what it would be like to lose a child :(

Insha'allah you will meet him again in jannah. Your words really touched me.

Dream It Up Cookies said...

This is so sad, I'm so sorry that you had to lose of Mubarak. I've lost two babies, a girl in 2005 and a boy in 2009. It's such a harsh thing to go through, even so many years later.

oldie goldie said...

ohhhh sis ♥ inshaAllah you'll meet him in jannah!

Esell said...

Very touching indeed, I really can't imagine your pain sis and no matter how many times i read this, always makes me cry.
may Allah heal your heart, give you peace and reunite you with your baby in junnah ameen.
love you tons <3

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