craving: to always see my son happy
Salam Alykom and hello to all my readers I hope everyone is having a great weekend. For my friends in the middle east, your weekend is over today. I hope y'all made the best of it. On to my entry.
This past year has been very hard on me. The only thing that has kept me in good faith is God. When I was in despair, I cried out to him. I always had hope and faith my situation would get better. My feelings of being away from somewhere where I was going to make my life and people I loved/still love were all over the place. Sometimes in life you have to listen to your heart and try to make the best descion for you and the ones you love. My decision was to stay in America. It was a hard decision, but at the end of the day I'm not going to make a decision that will harm my son and daughter. I don't think any mother would. I would of never thought almost, ten years later, I would be in this situation. Divorce is never easy and the kids are the ones that suffer.. Unfortunately.
Both parents being in the same city is hard on the kids, imagine thousands of miles away?
Well, I'm sure everyone wants to hear what the verdict of who our son will stay with ... The judge decided it would be best if our son stayed with me. Am I happy? Yes, of course. I love my son and always want him with me. But, on the other hand, I'm also compassionate towards his father in this sense. I threw everything we went through out the window. Him and I are over as husband and wife. Now my main concern is how my son and his father will keep in touch as much as possible. I'll do all it takes to make sure that my son will stay in touch with his father whom he loves and adores and vice versa.
What this entry is really about.... No one really wins in a divorce. It's a sad situation on both parts. My son's father loves him and he is a caring father. We just now have to work together to keep him and our son's realationship open and happy. I'm all for that. One million percent for that. What happened between him and I is between us and now it's over. Now the real work will start. That's trying to keep their loving father-son realationship together. Nothing is easy in this life, but when you work hard at it, and you have people who are willing to work with you, it's easy. I know that Abu Azooz (father of azooz) will try his best to always keep in touch with his son.
I will start my life now. Everything in the past is over and the main point now is doing everything I can to keep my son's father in his life. Showing my son what a beautiful, rich culture he has. Talking to him about his loving family back in United Arab Emirates. Getting an Arabic teacher to start teaching him how to speak Arabic the right way. I don't pronounce the words correctly and I want my son to learn the right way. Telling him that someday he will see his family again. God's willing. Yesterday as I was driving, this song came on called I'm Already There by Lonestar. I couldn't contain my tears.. It's the father telling his family he will never be far away from them.
Well, Monday is going to be a hard day for Abu Azooz and I. Abu Azooz will say good-bye to his son. I know this isn't easy for him. But, I'm praying that he comes to see him often. Skype is always good, too. I ask Allah (God) to give my son and his father a nice loving, caring, strong relationship and to make everything easy for all of u.
final whisper: on to another chapter in my life.. Good bye Abu Azooz. May Allah give you everything you ask for in your life and reward you for the good times and love you showed us. You will always be in my prayers. I always want good for you. Sorry everything had to happen like this. But, Allah knows what's best for us and we just have to say, "Alhamdullah" (thank you God). You have taught me many things in this life, I will take the good and run with it. I hope you always remember the good times we had. You gave me the best thing in this life. Our son. Just know, he will be taken care of and he is very much loved.